Life & death

I've never experience this kinda situation before. Life & death situation. Not me, it happened to my boss's PA, Julie..

Yesterday at 6pm, we heard our air cond turn off (cos we set timer), then i went to do some paper clipping outside my boss's room, then i heard some one calling 'boss'. A voice that is so soft, i thought i heard 'something' else...then my boss gush out, & asked his PA, 'Julie what happen?'...i went out second, follow by the rest in the studio. She was trying to grasp oxygen, trying to breathe so badly, so i calm her down, directing her to breathe normally, her hands were cold.

My boss call the ambulance, before that he's asking us what's the number, my junior answered, 911... (watched too much movie lar tu..) some one shouted 999...the other colleague said, we can't afford to wait for the ambulance to arrive, so he carry Julie to the door way, & she collapse.. I wanted to burst out that time, but i hold it. Was praying in tongues intensively inside my heart, saying nothing but follow whoever who gave instruction. We make her lay down side way on the floor, so that she can breathe better. It works! She was trembling & her whole body was numb.

My director went out to seek nearest GP doctor & another lady colleague of mine went out to the nearest ambulance. Yes, there's an ambulance on stand-by at the Bomba station. My director came back 1st. The doctor check on her, & said ' she's suffering hyper ventilation, is she in anxiety?' errr, how are we suppose to know?... she was fine the whole day.. The doc asked her to breathe with the plastic bad. She's much stable now...

We heard the ambulance siren.. looking out from my desk, people gathered outside their shop, typical malaysian (penyibuk)... Julie doesn't want to go to the hospital, but we insisted. My colleague went with her & boss left early as well. Everything was under control... an hour later, the 999 dept called to my boss & saying that their ambulance will arrive to the office from Sg. Buloh, what da??!!... the urgent call were made an hour ago!!...that's why lar, Malaysia... haih!!

Thank God she's ok now... resting at home... it was a horrific situation to face. She is just my colleague but i love her. Cos she is the one who brought me to RLC. Without this servant of God, i won't be in RLC & I won't get to know Jesus deeply. Thank you Jesus...

Shooo off the anger... HOLIDAY!! yay!

Arggghhhh!... she almost spoil it!!... i can't hold my anger of what she did. She likes to do what she prefer w/out considering what others feel. *selfish* Though i'm so angry at her, i love her much. Don't think i can count on her anymore.

Putting the anger aside for now. I wanna fill my mood with a 'beach holiday' mood. 2 more days i'm off to another vacation of the year. Now i'm feeling it. *excited*... & as always i'll miss home alot esp. my dad & my gals. Well just only 4 days... can't imagine if i'm married!... O_o...

Work has been good lately, since the junior came, my work load has became lighter. *praise God for that*... Last sunday i received 2 words from the Lord during the EFC prayer, 'expect new things' by Ps. Carey & 'special anointing upon me & promotion' by Ps. Joshua. *COOL!!!!!*...i can't wait what is it!... though promotion is kinda impossible, cos i just got promoted last year, but all things are possible to God & i choose to believe it!... *smiles*... can't waste time figuring out how but i know what ever things is, it is always GOOD!.. *can't wait*

Should i? or... i think i should not... hmm *dilemma*

No time to blog man..phew..now that everyone left the office, i shall blog blog blog...kekekeke...

Nowadays i have been expose too much of this!!!!Is the Nokia E71... heard that it was a good wan, well most of my friends has it. So i guess it is good. I hope this phone can store up many reminders & most importantly can use Excel & PDF. Many times i try to explain why i need a new phone but no one believe me... *sigh*...not self pity lar but, of cos there's a reason why. The current hp i'm having is good but knowing that my scope of work involves Excel, i thought of this one. Initially, wanted the touch screen, but after dad told me about his Samsung, Omnia...hmm...better not... buttons are still the best. Anyways, though i like the hp, but i still stick to my priority. To save $ & not to buy unnecessary. HAIH... ahem.. Like what my lion said, i should paste above picture on my wall, & confess it everyday... (-_-)

These few days i've been asking the Lord for favor.. favor with the people that i work with...favor with my colleagues.. & true enough, things started to change...really! it turns around so obviously.

I use to complain that i'm not favored, being ignore because of my lack of knowledge, being judge for different mentality & thinking (just because I'm in Christ, & you're not!) & i had an argument with my director before & that create strive between us. He kinda favor my collleague much more. But God is really super good!...his favor really amazed me. These few days, my boss started to put his trust on me to do the task, my director shares how he feels about other people who piss him off, he even given me a chance to sit in the interview session, he doesn't mind to walk with me or to talk to me (last time it wasn't like this because of the argument incident). I tell you, this is good!... Praise Jesus!

Alright it's time for khusus perkahwinan...hahaha, i realize each time i plurk...i mean!! each time i blog i mention about me going for Kingdom Marriage. Too much Plurk oredi...so addictive.

A . N . G . E . L . S

Went visitation yesterday & were amazed how this mother shared about his two sons, who can see angels!! Since I came to know Christ, I always wanted to see one. I love to hear such real story & would like to see them one day. Some describe the angels that have curly hair, very bright, beautiful, tall, big & etc… Really would like to see them in the spiritual realm. Anyways, the mom shared what her sons told her about angels. The angels protected them during few incidents like, falling down the staircase, from vehicle which almost bangs the elder son, comforting the sons when they are afraid of other evil spirit, protect the son from falling from the high chair & etc…The sons could tell the mother where the angels stood & count them 1 by 1. Such a relief to know that your child is actually in the safe hand of God’s angels. I know God sent angels to us, it can be in a form of a human or in the spiritual realms, but I’d really want to see one!

Speak to the 'mountain'

Wow, by looking at my last post, it’s been a looooooong time since I update myself. *lol*… so caught up with datelines… & while meeting those datelines, I get to go to Bali *smiles*… it was a fun trip except for those temple visiting. *aherm*… anyways pictures in facebook does explain it all. *smiles*

CHAMPS was awesome!... 80+ souls came to know Jesus… 3 tiring days but it was fun!... this year surely better than last year. Those adorable children…so talented & cute!

Christmas its coming!!... So excited to see the deco @ shops but I’m yet to see those beautiful & interesting design of the deco at the malls. Can’t wait. Can’t wait!

Everyone is talking about the economy. Heard that in 2009 will be another down turn just like what had happened in 1997. Just the other day, our client complained to us that her superior already announce, no bonus for managerial position onwards!... my bro’s company cut down 10-20% of their salary & recently, my boss told us that his friend in S’pore is in retrenchment. Despite all these bad news, God brings us good news. At the right time, Pastor preached about speaking to the mountains in faith. We often hear the ‘mountains’ which will make us worry about the future & the people that we love. Instead of hearing & speaking about it, we should speak TO the mountain with His word.

Now I shall speak to the situation that in times of famine, I shall have ABUNDANCE!.... Grreeeaaattttt ABUNDANCE!... *amen*

Talking about abundance, God is really good… I was at this boutique; saw this dress at 50%!! After %, is RM 75. Thought to myself, ‘hmm…not bad, a normal affordable dress is around this price’… I told the lady that I’ll be back for it cos, I was ran out of ca$h.. went to the nearest ATM, unfortunately, it was out of service… I didn’t go back there again cos I might disappoint her. (I was kinda disappointed myself)… So I left… 3 weeks after that which was on Wednesday, I went back there, told myself, if the dress is still there, I might consider it. I went in. it was quite embarrassing cos the lady still remember me *malu*… I didn’t bother to look at the price cos it was still place at the 50% corner. So I tried, I like it… I check the price it was RM89! After deduction of 50%, RM 44.50!!!... a dress for this price? LOVELY!... God is really good…

Ok, back to work now… from now, I have to remind myself to claim for the abundance… promotion & increment comes from God. Amen!

Love

I’m in the happy mode. *SMILES*… I can’t thank God enough for bringing my family closer to one another. Granny has been away for almost 2 weeks with mom in S’pore & soon they’ll be on their way to Vietnam for a holiday. I miss the dinner she always cooks & of cos, our daily chit chatting… I shared most of my stuff with her. Even I’m not that close to dad. Thank God for telephone! *laughs*… it is funny to hear mom’s & granny’s comment about certain topic… I laugh most of the time. On my side here, we get to spend more time & take good care of each other (dad, bro & i) since mom & granny not around. Being the only female in the family, the house chores duty became much greater. That is why I treasure my Saturday very much to do it. I’d say God is the one who bring my family closer. I feel loved. *smiles*… not just the external loves that God has blessed me but this internal love aka family… now just have to keep thanking Him for their salvation… We able to love cos He 1^st loves us.

Last Sunday, I learn something from Ps. Carey’s sermon. Respect builds relationship. That it is important that we respect not just to elderly but to young children. We should learn to say these 3 words, I love you, Thank you & I’m sorry… *hmmm*… lack of respect – no unity, Eph 5:33 & 1 Peter 3:7, be considerate towards each other, respect young children & do not insult/scold/correct them in public, respect your boss who is above you (authority), respect the man/woman of God, respect leaders, respect yourself, respect differences & do all as unto the Lord… *phew*… Good stuff!... R.E.S.P.E.C.T…

2 songs that describe my current mood…

*rejoice in the midst of heavy storm, REJOICE*

G.O.D is L.O.V.E

No other days is better than sat & sun!... Nothing special, did some house chores, brought Milo for grooming, service my car, VYS & church… my usual weekend routine *smiles*…

Did some magazine reading on sat, (expired magazine). There is 1 article interest me. Bad Love, Good Sex. Why this article interest me is not because of the sex…pls!!!... Is the content of the 3 female that shared their bad relationship but had a good sex life story with their man (same man!!) for years!!. They were in bondage (sex) though their man treats them badly. We ladies do wish to have a normal happy relationship with the one we loved & to have a healthy family life. But what I’ve read is really amazed me. Amaze me as in, I realized, love sometimes doesn’t come as easy as you think. People see love differently, what is love? L.O.V.E is God some says, I use to see love = have fun all the time… some might see love in $$$, but what I read from that magazine, love = jealousy, physical satisfying & to pass time. It’s an eye opening to me as I read. There are many lost souls who still don’t know what real L.O.V.E means. What is love? & Who is love?...Where to find satisfying love?. I’m so blessed to be in the Lord. What if I’m still of the world? It could be worse. I have found love. Jesus is love.. His love = satisfying, unconditional, overflowing, wholesome, etc…nothing can compare His love for me…just nothing…*smiles*

Prince of Egypt. I want to get the DVD. Thanks to teacher Joshua, who taught the bible story yesterday. As we watch the show (few clips only), the story of Moses is so real. How God turn his staff into a snake, how God turn the Nile river into bloody river, how the 3D graphic was added when God sent Moses to part the red sea. Nice… never get to watch, cos it was banned in Msia… *cheh*… siapa adaDVD??? PLS!!!!...

Here are some shots of Milo…’botak’ Milo…

OH YEA!!!... dad just bought a 42” Panasonic plasma tv!!!.... yeh yeh!!

Be proactive & not reactive

You hurt others (intentionally or unintentionally) & in return, you will get hurt. In this world, we human hurt each other. Leaving in this fallen world not just the situation is tough; dealing w/ people is tough too!

Just recently, I was sexually harassed (by words). It was so bad; I can’t concentrate on my daily schedule. It was so serious, we argued! & worst still, I work off!! I was reacted by it... not just the words that was spoken that had hurt me but that he/she, don’t feel sorry about it!! & not sincerely about it!... *sigh*… sometimes I thought to myself, maybe God wants me to be strengthen in this area. There are many nasty words spoken over me by those closest to me. How I handle it? By crying… i didn’t confront them. I have no guts to make a stand for myself. Because of this, I can’t blame people for taking me for granted as they might think I’m actually ok with those so call ‘joke’…

Since this matter had finally got into my emotion, I definitely will make a stand. Just like what God said, ‘Do not let people bully you’. Making a right stand doesn’t mean we’re defensive, but it is to let people know, you do have your own opinion & you’re not a ‘nobody’ but a somebody!...

So how to I deal with that person? I made a right choice & people around me are proud of my action. It is up to that person to act on it now. I’m very grateful by all the teaching. Tough situation really test us & it is all by His grace, we can overcome each tough ones.

Alright, enough of the serious issue. I told Jesus, I want to have a good week & I want to be happy! *big smile* I just took some shots yesterday of Milo & her boy friend! Hahhaahhhaa….h*** baby h***…..*LAUGHS*…

i’m so into blogging now… back to blogging. Angie!!, thanks to you, hehehhehe… too bad I don’t have a changih camera like yours… I try not to abandon my blog for now. *bleh*