*hem*…. Dad is not around, again!...due to work… guess right now he’s busy working in Kuantan. I always feel insecure w/out dad at home. Though we have another man in the house (bro)… during my childhood, I use to cry alot when dad going outstation or didn't come back before my bedtime...I guess I’m too dependent on dad as an adult. Is not a good thing, esp to dad, he wants me to get a life (married)… I just can’t believe I have reached the age of having my own life & no more depending on parents. Just can’t believe I’m a lady & no more a young gal, when my parents use to care very much about me for being a young teenage gal. now that I’ve grown up!... *laughs* yea…face the reality, ‘no more babying, flo!’
Anyways…I miss my dad…
It is so not interesting… do you know sometimes in a situation, you feel frustrated at first, then you feel giving up, & then it feels like, ‘oh, again..’, then ‘what’s new?’, then totally NUMB!... ‘if like that, then ok lo…’ really ‘tidak apa’ attitude… well…sometimes s*** situation really makes me feel ‘tidak apa’…one of the e.g… my granny keeps doing the ‘ffk’ attitude towards me. Promise to cook & then towards dinner time, I was told she can’t make it sometimes worse! Didn’t even call, I was angry & what does she do? Nothing about it, take for granted. Can she change? Of cos I don’t expect her to change, she’s quite an age & I still love my popo but at least she do cook better stuff for us nowadays *smiles*…
Alrite, enough throwing frustration, always go back to Jesus… *calm*… he is all together lovely, lovely to me, gentle, interested, admire & love me very much. He is faithful & never ‘ffk’ his promises to me. He is the same, yesterday, today & forever!...
This month, quite a blessed month… earned extra rm1900 this month…thanks to my cousin who keep giving me free lance job… easy money but have to sacrifice my beauty zzz…so If u see me look sleepy & flu, you know now… *smiles* panda eyes...
3 comments:
growing up is a part of life :) it's not all bad, you learn fromn your parents, then use it n pass it down to ya childern :), maybe ur popo forgot or something?(when she doesnt call) any wayz, it's ok to miss ya parents even if ur grown up Hehe, it's just like hwo God misses everyone that He came down to die to re-establish a relationship with everyone..
:) is good u know He loves ya n all :) I always liek to say this, we don;'t knwo How much God loves us, but HE always loves us more than we think :)
God bless
-Chris
thks for the encouraging word..remember wat i said to you abt 'stages of life'?...im goin thru it now..each stage of life will change the perception of certain thinking. *sigh*..i know how u feel, chris :)
oh, im so use to my popo adi.. *bleh*
heh yea I remmeber,, stages of life, soon I think I'll have to go through another stage, once I manage to enroll into the course >.<,
Anywayz, God bless ya continously~ leading you in everystep of the way, covering you beneath His wings, whislt u don't walk behind Him, or beside, or infront of Him(old Testiment) but now walking in Him and Him in you :)
-Chris
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