Palladio is safe!

Yes, we (the palladian) are safe; the office is in good hand. Someone tried to break into our office, they broke the main door, but thank God, they didn’t manage to unscrew the glass door lockset. Pheewww… Went to police station near by in the morning, and an hour later they came with their camera gadgets. Snap snap!! Crime Scene Investigation! Haha! Everything back to normal now, we still work, though we thought we could have half day off! Aiks! Hahaha…

Yesterday was Baskin Robbins day!...bought RM 57.24 (after discount) of ice cream!! 3 flavors!...Old fashion Peacon Peanut, Cookies & cream ( my favourite) & Mint chocolate chips!... 1400grm of ice cream! That will last me till the next 31st of the month! Muahahha!!

I realize what I’ve wrote on the previous blog, & is sounded nasty… but I feel so sorry… God sent his servant to talk/minister to me yesterday. I was so touched & I repent the way I behave & act. Knowing that I’m a leader, care leader, I shouldn’t do/ say things like that. I just can’t understand why God wants it this way, but His way is higher than my ways & his thoughts is higher than my thoughts. So I cant never understand why he want the church or the ministry to run this way…The ministry is belongs to God. I have to submit & serve him only. Not unto men…Knowing serving unto men can be frustrating.

I’ve come to know the bigger picture what God wants. For the church & me. He holds the future, not us. I can’t afford to see myself being stray away like last time anymore. I’ve been away from God for 6 years but I’m glad I’m back into His arms. I wanna thank God for a friend who is care to tell me the story of Jacob & Esau. I dunwan to be like Esau. Who sold his birth right to his brother just to get want he wanted. I’m not gonna waste/throw away my leadership (birth right) because of frustration & hurts that I’ve felt in the ministry. No way…

I cried. I wanted to knelt down & repent to God. I feel really bad.But I know I shouldn’t feel condemn. God is still gracious. I guess forgiveness is free but trust is earned. I’m sorry for reacting this way as a leader. No one is lesser than anyone… I’m not afraid to apologies. It takes guts to do it, but saying sorry & repentance really breaks the bondage in me. I love God. And I obey Him… I dunwan to miss out anything that He has instore for me..

“Lord, I repent, I’m sorry…I know I do complain, and not respecting the ministry that you’ve prepared before me. Pls forgive me…”

I’m okay now!..i feel so free!!... Serious! Is like there’s no more frus & hurts!...I’m glad… I’m sure all this are not coincidence. It is His will. He wants to correct me, & I just obey. Again, advice from a friend. “God is telling you this, it is YOUR CHOICE, whether you want to follow or not”..

I wanna thank God this 'friend' of mine..God bless you! Love ya!